Sunday smorgasbordPosted: October 7, 2012
The wise man does not seek enlightenment, he waits for it. So while I was waiting, it occurred to me that seeking perplexity might be more fun. . . After all, enlightenment begins where perplexity ends.
~ Terry Pratchett
As usual, I’m left with a smorgasbord of photos from the past week or two that didn’t make it to the blog for a variety of reasons. Usually they get shunted aside because the post is already weighed down with images. Occasionally the photo doesn’t fit the theme that developed as I was putting together a post. And sometimes the photos are experiments and I’m not always sure what to do with my experiments.
Are your blog posts planned? Laid out in a logical manner? I almost never know where I’m going when I sit down to write up a blog post. I start with one idea, but then the images and words go off of their own accord. Sometimes the images dance around the words. More often, the words dance around the images. Most of the time I can’t tell which is which.
Perplexity is the beginning of knowledge.
~ Kahlil Gibran
I am fifteen days into my meditation commitment. Time flies… well, actually, it doesn’t. Time sometimes stops during meditation. Perhaps “stops” is the wrong word. It expands. It’s difficult to put into words without sounding as if I just stepped out of the 60s after dropping some acid. (I wasn’t old enough to be dropping acid in the 60s, but didn’t miss is by much. That is all I have to say about that.)
The NaBloPoMo prompt for Friday was: Do you tend to cover up your failings or admit your mistakes?
What a strange question. I don’t think failings and mistakes are necessarily the same thing. Failing doesn’t have to be the result of a mistake, and a mistake doesn’t have to be a failing. In fact, I’ve probably learned just as much, if not more, from my mistakes than from my successes. Mistakes becomes successes. Failings are often an ending.
I don’t cover up my failings or my mistakes. Karma has a way of making those things public in one way or another so I’ve learned not to bother trying to hide them. Much. I don’t announce them to the world either.
For instance, I didn’t tell you what it was I did that was stupid. Not right away. If you keep up with comments, you know what it was I did. For those that don’t, I’ll tell you now because it’s funny now.
I backed our new/old car into the dirt pile that sits at the end of the driveway. Here’s the thing about that dirt pile: When the dirt was delivered (5 tons of it), I asked that it not be allowed to sit there long enough to grow grass and weeds and become a hillock. M and I did our best, but the grass and weeds did grow. The dirt pile became a part of the landscape. It also became a habitat for a variety of critters, including birds who nested in the weeds that grew large enough for them to nest in.
In our garage we have a tennis ball hanging from the ceiling. This visual cue is extremely helpful when it comes to parking the car. After I backed into the dirt pile, M planted a shovel with a ribbon on the end into it in the temporary hillock. I laugh every time see it.
I was disconcerted in the extreme when I looked at the results of backing into the dirt pile. The bumper on the driver’s side was covered in mud and dirt. Dirt was driven (literally) into the hitch (where we attach the rack for the bikes) and the tailpipe. The funniest thing of all: A big weed was sticking out of the tailpipe, planted in the dirt. It looked as though it had been living there for ages. I should have taken a photo, but I was too busy hosing everything off so I could see what damage, if any, had been done. It was during the hosing off that I discovered the bumper was loose.
So there I stood, with a car that we’d had for barely a month, thinking I’d broken it. All because I wasn’t paying attention. All because I’d gotten a little cocky when it came to doing something I’m usually not very good at (judging distances).
There is a happy ending. The entire right side of the car and bumper did not fall off as I feared they would. (My mind sometimes works in silly ways, going to extremes.) A couple of plastic rivet thingies had broken off and were easily replaced. I didn’t break the car.
It is strange, the desire to show off or to be somebody. It seems so impossibly difficult to be simple, to be what you are, and not pretend. To be what you are is in itself very arduous without trying to become something, which is not difficult. You can always pretend, put on a mask, but to be what you are is an extremely complex affair; because you are always changing; you are never the same and each moment reveals a new facet, a new depth, a new surface. You can’t be all this at one moment for each moment brings its own change. So if you are intelligent, you give up being anything.
~ J. Krishnamurti
Well, that was quite a ramble, wasn’t it? Enough for today, that’s for sure. Thanks for dropping in. We’ve been having lake effect rain here in the Bogs today. The dampness combined with the temperature in the 40s made for a chilly walk. There is a freeze warning in effect tonight. It’s time to put the garden to bed for another season.
It’s vital to remember who you really are. It’s very important. It isn’t a good idea to rely on other people to do it for you, you see. They always get it wrong.
~ Terry Pratchett
*Reference to this scene from The Matrix.