Three things

Adrift

The Yogic sages say that all the pain of a human life is caused by words, as is all the joy.  We create words to define our experiences and those words bring attendant emotions that jerk us around like dogs on a leash.  We get seduced by our own mantras (I’m a failure… I’m lonely… I’m a failure… I’m lonely… ) and we become monuments to them.  To stop talking for a while, then, is to attempt to strip away the power of words, to stop choking ourselves with words, to liberate ourselves from our suffocating mantras.

~ Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

Adrift II

Over the past several months I’ve been nominated for a variety of blog awards, and I have acknowledged them but rarely played along as I feel as though I’ve already answered the questions or posted well more than seven things about me, and if not, those things eventually come out somehow in my daily writing.

Thorny

Then I got to thinking that there are some things about me that might not come through so I decided it was time to tell you a few things about me you might not know.

Oh hai

#1  I bruise easily.  It’s true in the physical sense, but also in the emotional sense.  A wrong look, a harsh gesture, or an insensitive gathering of words hurled through the air or cyberspace can be painful.  I had hoped to be a bit thicker skinned by this point in life, or at least have the ability to let things of this nature roll off my back the way they say water rolls off the back of a duck.  I am sure there are reasons why it’s good to be a sensitive soul.  I’m just hard pressed to come up with them today.

Waiting for breakfast

#2  I love a friendly debate, and often get overenthusiastic about some issues.  I suppose that might come across as being argumentative or like a dog with a bone, unable to let go.  I have found it’s more difficult to have a friendly debate via the written word.  The lack of body language clues can lead to confusion and misunderstandings.  Even though I have learned this lesson over and over again, I continue to repeat the mistake of trying to engage in intelligent debate and exploration of what might be construed as controversial issues.  Mea culpa.

Tangled

#3  I try not to compare myself with others because that path leads to a waning of self-confidence in my own abilities, skills, and talents, and/or envy of what others have that I don’t have either because I cannot afford it (a high-end camera, for example) or I never really wanted it until someone else pointed out that they are somehow better than I am because they do have it.  Oh, I know that’s silliness, and eventually I get over it, but it’s best not to go there in the first place, don’t you think?

Twisted

So there you have it.  Three things you might not have known about me.  A fourth, and this one I think you do know, is that I use my photography and my words to get in touch with and work with the so-called negative emotions.  Stress, hurt feelings, anger, even illness play a role in my images at times.  I find it easier to be with and understand that which I can visualize in some form.

Duality

There are times, though, when it’s best to put aside the words and images, and just be for a while.  A time to retreat and, as the opening quote mentions, liberate myself.

A sunbeam lands in the woods

I’ll be back in a day or two or three.  It depends on how quickly I work my way through some stuff.  Nothing serious, mind you.  That’s part of the problem, you see.  Seriousness.  It will be good to lighten up, on all levels.  That’s a fifth thing about me:  I sometimes allow the seriousness and stress of others to rub off on me.  Not a good practice, and not one I do consciously, but it does lead to a better sense of empathy in the end.

Downtime

Thank you all so much for your visits, your likes, and your comments.  I’ve been trying to answer comments today, and return a few of your visits.  After today, I’ll be on retreat, enjoying the wonderful weather we’ve been having, taking walks around the pond and into the woods, meditating and spending time on the yoga mat, and watching the sunrise and sunset.  I might even hop on my bike and take a long ride.  I will try very hard not to sneak in just to peek at your blog or my blog or any blog.  But I’m not making any promises.  lol!

Wishing you wonderful-filled days, delightful evenings, and peaceful nights.  I hope you find a little time to Just Be, too.  🙂

Riding off into the sunset

The way is not in the sky.  The way is in the heart.

~ Buddha

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41 Comments on “Three things”

  1. tedgriffith says:

    Robin, I hope that you will find the peace you are seeking. See you soon! 🙂

  2. anhinga says:

    Enjoyed this rather soul baring post as well as the artful photos as usual.

  3. The “Twisted” was my favorite! 🙂

  4. Corina says:

    Thank you for the three things (well, five actually!) about you. I think that’s one of the toughest things to do…write honestly about ourselves. You’ve done it here and you have let us all see a little piece of you that we didn’t see before.

    And by the way, I don’t know if it’s because I am using a different computer with newer graphic capabilities but the color in today’s pictures really pops off the screen, more than usual. I’m glad I came here today. I needed that pop!

    Enjoy yourself. Come back when you are ready. But don’t take too long! ; )

    • Robin says:

      Thank you, Corina. 🙂

      I usually do find it tough to write really personal stuff on my blog, but this post was easier than usual, coming from a place of hurt feelings and maybe a little anger. It was probably the anger that made it easy.

  5. dadirri7 says:

    blessings for your retreat, commune with the heart, come back refreshed!

  6. I was pleased to learn more about you Robin.. often those “five” responses contain some more “superficial” (not meant in a derogative way) answer. I really enjoyed how “deeply” you went to define yourself.. this was an honest post today. We bloggers probably have more in common than we realize:)

  7. mobius faith says:

    Another fab post. I love the Buddha quote. and your first two “adrift” images are just fantastic. Great processing. I also love all the insects.

  8. A beautiful, honest post. Thank you for sharing more of yourself with us. 🙂

  9. I, too, bruise easily–in a number of ways. Hope you enjoy your break from seriousness. I need to that, as well!
    Hugs,
    Kathy

  10. I’ve been bruising a bit easily, too…Last week, I went to a very positive seminar about “highly sensitive people”…in a room full of “hsp’s”… they talked about the need for self nurturing, understanding and being sure to restore and lighten one’s tender spirit by spending time alone and in nature…wishing you lots of light this week! (tomorrow, I’m doing this too…heading out for a few days in the relatively isolated, high country areas in Yosemite…for more light and energy!)

  11. Elisa's Spot says:

    Thanks for this particular blog post. 🙂

  12. Karma says:

    A very pretty post visually, and thought-provoking in the word department. I hope you are able to easily work through whatever it is that is disturbing you. I’m smiling just a little to myself as you say you are retreating from the blog for a day or three – usually it takes me at least that long to cobble a post together. 🙂

  13. sdobbie46 says:

    Robin–don’t be so hard on yourself. Your photos and sayings always brighten my day. You have an insight that no one else has. Peace to you.

  14. Your sensitive soul is what makes your pictures and words so beautiful. Love and peace to you.

  15. ladyfi says:

    Wow – fabulous use of light! Gorgeous.

  16. dearrosie says:

    I’m so glad you showed an interest in my blog so I could come over and meet you. I love your honesty, and humanity as well as your lovely photos in this post. I also love trees (even more so since I walked along the Camino in Spain) and the colors of the sunset in the last photo are just amazing!

  17. Ellen says:

    another thing about you is that you do your best to be honest with yourself, a rare thing in these days …
    have a very nice weekend!!!

  18. Dana says:

    Thank you for sharing, Robin. I am a sensitive soul who bruises easily as well, but I’m trying to roll with the punches a little better as I go along in life. I’m decidedly *not* a good debater, though. Debates (even of the friendly variety) make me shrink like a flower in the hot, hot sun. Thank you for the warning! 😉

    • Robin says:

      No need to worry, Dana. Having had a heads up, I will refrain from debating with you. I’m refraining from debating with anyone online lately so that will be easy. 😀

  19. Adrift.Tangled. twisted. And Sunbeam – pretty much life – had to track back to reconstruct.
    Amazing post here. Glad I found it


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