Childhood disease revistedPosted: December 28, 2011
We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey.
~ Kenji Miyazawa
I am feeling weary. And in pain. The illness I barely mentioned yesterday is one that brings a great deal of pain with it. This is what I have, or what currently has me in its grips.
It’s difficult to find the bright side.
Diseases can be our spiritual flat tires — disruptions in our lives that seem to be disasters at the time but end by redirecting our lives in a meaningful way.
~ Bernie S. Siegel
I could sit here and whine about it. I started to do just that. But I’ve been thinking about how I got to this point. After you’ve had the chickenpox, the virus which causes the disease remains dormant in certain nerve fibers in the body. If the virus becomes active again, you have shingles, a painful skin infection. There are a number of theories as to what will cause the virus to reactivate, most related to a weak immune system.
Today I’ve been reflecting on the choices I’ve made in regards to my health. I’m not judging those choices. It was hard to withhold judgment at first because pain often comes with a desire to blame. Instead of blaming, I’d rather take a look at where things might have gone wrong, and where things might have gone right, and then focus on what I’m going to do now. Now is all I can really work with, although it helps to have a good look at my starting point and what got me here.
Having shingles is not a good thing, but I expect good things to come from it because I have decided to be optimistic about the outcome even if that’s difficult to do here in the moment.
Speaking of good things, it is day 92 of my year-long yoga challenge. The past few days of coping with pain seem to me to be a yoga practice in their own right. There are certain things I cannot do right now, but there are other postures that have helped. Forward bends and some gentle backbends relieve the pain temporarily. A guided relaxation meditation has also been beneficial.
We are not responsible for our illness, we responsible to them, to what they offer and require of all of us, sick and well alike.
~ Kat Duff
That’s about it from the Bogs for today. Thank you for coming along as I start on another leg of the journey through life. We had snow overnight and this morning. Just a light dusting. I went out on the deck for a little while to take in some fresh air and admire the sparkle of the snow whenever there was a break in the clouds that allowed the sun to shine through. You’ll need to bundle up for a walk around the pond. It’s very cold and the strong winds make it seem even colder, but quite invigorating. You’ll have to pardon me for not coming along. I’m just not up to it today. Instead, I’ll just sit here and enjoy the blue sky photos from the walk I took on Monday.