Grounded

Trust creates peace.

~ From a Yogi Tea bag tag

Dogwood reflection

I had one of those ah-ha! moments  yesterday afternoon.  I read those three simple words on the Yogi Tea (Classic India Spice) bag tag, and there it was, a light bulb moment.  Trust creates peace.  How simple.

That simple sentence provided me with a world of answers, and more questions.  Isn’t that always the way of these things?  First an answer, then another question stemming from the answer.

I find that trust has to begin with me.  I have to trust that I know what I’m doing when I set goals, and trust myself to take the right steps towards those goals.  It dawned on me that my set-backs can often be attributed to a lack of trust in myself and/or in my goals.

An interesting caterpillar I found today.

I think a fear of success might stem from lack of trust.

A lack of trust in one’s goals, one’s abilities, and most of all, in what will happen if one is successful.  The process of meeting a goal often brings about changes, small and large.  And once you succeed at a goal, there is no turning back from that.

I’ll give you an example.  A lot of my attempts to quit smoking failed within the first month or two.  You might think that after going through the physical withdrawal from nicotine, things would get easier, and after a month it shouldn’t be too bad at all.  But it was usually about a month or so into a quit that I would panic about succeeding because I’d suddenly get the notion in my head that if I succeeded, it meant I would never smoke again.

That was the whole idea, of course.  To not smoke again.  The worry or panic boiled down to being too successful.  The further I made it into a quit, the bigger the changes, and the more likely it was that I’d reach a point of no return.  It’s much easier to fail at the beginning.  You don’t fall as far.

Now that I’m over ten years into being an ex-smoker, those fear of success feelings regarding my quit are gone.  It’s at the start of any challenge or goal that I tend to regard failure as an option as long as I don’t get too far into the challenge.  Now that I recognize some of what is at play, I can use this knowledge to help me with some challenges that I have not done well at.  All because of a Yogi Tea bag tag.

In other news…

The weather here in the Bogs lately must be perfect for fungi.  There are mushrooms popping up all over the place.  Some very pretty mushrooms, too.  I don’t remember seeing so many mushrooms last year.  Perhaps I wasn’t looking down enough.

The floor of the woods is dotted with tiny, brightly colored mushrooms of various colors.  You probably don’t want to eat them, though, or you’ll end up like these guys.

I spent a lot of time looking at the ground while out on today’s walk.  There are all sorts of interesting things on the ground.

The rain from the past two days has made it soggy and boggy, as usual.  I really, really, really need to invest in a good pair of muck boots.  They have some cute boots for rainy days.

No rain for us so far today.  It started cloudy, but the sky cleared and the sun came out around noon and it’s been nice ever since.

The rain will return sometime tomorrow and stick around for a few days as that low pressure system sitting near Chicago finally makes its way through.

It is day 2 of my yoga and food challenges.  All went well with this morning’s practice.  No cat fights, no alarms going off, no phones ringing, no other distractions.  Just me, on the mat doing twists, and moving with my breath.  It was lovely.

Well, that’s about it from the Bogs for today.  Thanks for dropping by and joining me on my daily ramble.  🙂

Visiting the creek.

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