57: Going Home

(A California rose.)

It’s Tuesday morning as I type this.  I’m sitting on the deck of the condo we’re renting, occasionally getting caught up in watching and listening to the waves of the Pacific as they roll in.  It’s foggy this morning.  They say it will burn off by 10am.

(The Fish Tree.)

This has been a lovely trip with perfect weather.  The only thing missing was a swim in the ocean, something I’ve never done here.  I put my feet in.  I wade.  But I never swim.  I suppose if the weather got hot enough — to counteract the cold of the water — I might.  I love to swim in the sea and play in the waves.

You’re probably wondering why I’m writing this on Tuesday if it’s a Thursday post.  We’re heading home.  It’s going to  be a long travel day.  I’m not sure I’ll have the time or energy to post before the day is over.  The solution is a scheduled post.  Gotta love WordPress.

Once again I will have to be up at 2am to get ready to go to the airport.  That makes for a very long day.  It might not be so bad if I could sleep on the plane.  But I have a fear of flying so sleep is out of the question.  I stay awake to keep the plane in the air.  (It’s magic!  lol!)  As I was explaining to someone the other day, the fear doesn’t lessen with each flight.  I never understood the idea (or benefits) of desensitization therapy.  As far as I can tell, it doesn’t work.  Deep breaths, meditation, visualization… tried ’em all.  I still get anxious and afraid.  I spend the first part of the flight in a cold sweat of terror.   Eventually I relax out of sheer exhaustion until the descent and landing.

(Pacific Portal.  Shelter Island.)

I’d give up flying but it’s difficult to travel anywhere if you don’t fly.  It takes longer, for one thing.  A cross-country trip in the car would mean a couple of days travel time to get here, a couple of days travel time to get home, and not much time in between to enjoy actually being here.  So, I get on an airplane and hope for the best.

I don’t want to spend my remaining days here in sunny California dwelling on my fear of flying.  But it does help to sit with the fear using mindfulness techniques for a little while.  I’ve learned that trying to deny or ignore the fear doesn’t work.  Might as well sit with it with mindfulness and compassion for a few minutes.

(Walking the dogs.)

As of this writing, it’s been a great trip.  There has been time to relax as well as see some of the sights.  I’ve taken lots of long walks and had no difficulty at all meeting my outdoor commitment.

(Mission Bay sculpture.)

Home will be good, too.  I miss Izzy and Bella, and wonder how they’re doing.  I’m sure they are fine or I would have heard something from our house-/pet-sitter.  I will also enjoy sleeping in my own bed once again.  The bed here has been comfortable enough and I didn’t have any trouble sleeping, but there’s no place like home when it comes to comfort.

We had breakfast early this morning (that would be Tuesday) at Kono’s, a Pacific Beach institution.  On the weekends the line to get in is out the door and up the street.  A Kono’s breakfast is large, especially if you order a breakfast burrito, delicious, and the price is great.  Going early on a Tuesday, it wasn’t very crowded at all.  In fact, we were able to get a seat on the patio that overlooks the ocean.

Well, I guess that’s about it from San Diego for now.  Next time you hear from me, I’ll be back in the Bogs.

11 Comments on “57: Going Home”

  1. Kathy says:

    Hope you had a safe flight home. Hope you didn’t panic too much…hope you breathed deeply and relaxed.

    By the way–I absolutely adore the lines of the Fish Tree. It’s so cool!

  2. Marianne says:

    Robin, I know exactly what you mean when it comes to flying. I couldn’t sleep either. You are right, I had to keep the plane in the air. So funny.

    The gulls are cute. I wonder what they’re looking at.

    Wishing you a safe and happy traveling day.

  3. Kala says:

    Looks and sounds like you had a fabulous trip. 🙂 It is freezing here!

  4. Kel says:

    Robin you are one courageous chick
    feel the fear, do it anyway
    if it were me, i’d get on the plane take two Sleep Aid tabs and wake up when the plane lands
    oh wait, i don’t have a fear of flying, but that’s what i do for long hauls anyway :-)))

  5. photobyholly says:

    Looks like you had a great time in CA!! My friend and I had a really nice conversation with an American Airlines pilot while we were all waiting for a train to Miami – we talked to him about turbulence, and how the plane is actually made to bend and give a little bit (otherwise, the plane would be shaking a LOT more), and the wings can actually move up and down about 10 feet while in the air (I looked out the window of the plane, saw the wing bend, and freaked out a little bit). It was SO comforting to talk to him about flying – he answered a lot of our questions, and by the time I got on the plane again, I was fine!!

  6. Anna says:

    All great photos shared on your trip at San Diego… and such lovely beach scenes. Flying! Yikes! I feel the same. I guess you had go through the body scanner or pat down? That and flying… ugh for me. May your trip back home be smooth sailing. 🙂

  7. penpusherpen says:

    Grrrreat Photo’s, and I’m just loving the sculptures…
    and I have never, ever flown in a plane, so I suppose I have no idea how I’d react.
    I will say this though, you survived, so you can use a Mantra…I’m a survivor.
    and thank you for sharing your wonderful trip, through your photo’s and words, almost as good as being there….(I did say almost!! 😉 )

  8. Holly’s absolutely right about the plane – they are built for an excessive amount of stress and tension. I loved your narrative though – so open and honest! Great shots, too! Big “Thumbs Up” for Kona’s! Great post, Robin!

  9. jenna says:

    welcome home!

  10. Karma says:

    This was a great assortment of pictures. I especially love the funky fish tree, isn’t that funny it is the one that called to me! I saw the other post about being home, so intead of wishing you safe travel, I’ll say nice to be home, safe and sound.

  11. Robin says:

    Thanks everyone! 😀

    Sorry to do a generic kind of thanks but I’m so far behind with comments (and visiting other blogs and leaving a few comments of my own) that I decided to streamline a bit.

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