Have you ever…

(119:  Burrowing into the sand.  RMNP, Co.  Photo © 2009 by Robin)

Have you ever been in a situation where you just can’t stand to be there anymore?  Perhaps it was a roller coaster ride or some bad turbulence on an airplane or an illness of some kind.

I’ve had a few of those moments today.  A near panic attack on the way to the funeral home this morning.  And then again tonight, after all was quiet and we were settling in at the hotel.  A fleeting thought:  I can’t stand this anymore.  I just… can’t.

I want to write about it all, but can’t do it now.  Perhaps when I get home.  Perhaps when I start adjusting to this new world even though right now I’m not sure I’ll ever get used to it.

I miss my mother.